Counted my releases yesterday whilst updating my CV. Twenty singles. Two EPs. Nine music videos. Three featured collaborations. The numbers surprised me.
Not because I forgot making these songs, but because I never stopped to properly acknowledge the scale of what’s been created. When you’re inside the process, you’re just writing the next track, booking the next studio session, planning the next video. You don’t pause to recognise the body of work accumulating behind you.
Five years ago, I couldn’t have imagined this discography existing. Back then, my emotional state felt like a storm I couldn’t navigate. Making music whilst managing bipolar disorder meant some days the creativity flowed effortlessly, and other days simply showing up to the studio required every bit of strength I possessed.
The transformation feels profound when I reflect honestly. Stabilising my mental health wasn’t glamorous work. It meant therapy, proper treatment, learning to recognise patterns, building routines that supported rather than sabotaged me. The music documented this journey without me fully realising it at the time.
‘Boy’ emerged from the chaos. ‘Part of the Way (To Mother)’ from attempting to process loss. ‘Holy Ghost of Tomorrow’ from finding hope again. Each track represents a specific moment in learning how to exist more peacefully with my own mind.
But the friends made this possible. The collaborators who understood when I needed to reschedule because my brain wasn’t cooperating. Chuvakam, НОРА НОРА, Andrey Sova—musicians who brought their talents whilst allowing space for my process. The producers who listened when I explained what I needed emotionally from a session, not just sonically.
My friends outside music kept me grounded when industry pressures felt overwhelming. They reminded me that my value extends beyond streams and recognition. They celebrated wins genuinely and supported through struggles without judgment.
Training at Point Blank and The Songwriting Academy helped professionalise my craft, but my friends taught me how to sustain a creative life long-term. That distinction matters enormously.
Looking at these CV achievements—the awards, the broadcast play across 35+ countries, the festival performances—I feel grateful rather than proud. Grateful for the stability that allows consistent work. Grateful for collaborators who elevate my vision. Grateful for an audience who connects with these bilingual explorations of mental health and human experience.
The work continues. New material is developing that pushes further into experimental territory whilst maintaining the emotional honesty that defines everything I create. The upcoming single represents the next evolution of this sound.
Thank you for being part of this journey. Your support makes the work sustainable and meaningful.
New song coming soon. Stay close.
— Indie pop artist, musician Anastasiia Ledovskaia