Sometimes music just happens. You sit at home with your guitar and something clicks. That’s how “ELEPHANTS” is coming to life right now.
Evening in Moscow a few days ago. Me, alone with my guitar, playing random chords. No plan, no structure. Just letting my fingers wander. The melody showed up first, broken and raw, like pieces trying to find their place.
Then the lyrics started coming. Words just falling out. “She doesn’t understand” kept repeating in my head, becoming the backbone of whatever this song wants to be.
I grabbed my phone and recorded everything. The guitar, my voice, even the street noise outside. These home demos are everything to me. They catch the exact moment when an idea is born, all messy and real.
What’s cool about this track is how it won’t follow any structure I know. The verses blur into each other, thoughts cut themselves off. It feels like an emotional word vomit. I’m not trying to fix it because sometimes life doesn’t make sense, so why should music?
I’ve been going back to this demo for days now, trying to get what it wants to become. Playing the same chords over and over, changing words, adding new lines, taking some away. The creative process is weird like that – you think you’re in control but really the song is telling you where it wants to go.
The anger in the lyrics is real. That feeling when you try to reach someone who lives in a different world. When your thoughts break apart because emotions run too high. I’m writing about miscommunication, about something that needs to be heard.
Right now it’s just me and my guitar in my room, trying to catch something that feels important. No studio yet, no fancy stuff, just raw material that might turn into something worth sharing. This is the part I love most – when everything is still open and nothing is decided.
I keep recording new versions on my phone. Different speeds, different vocal melodies, playing with where to put the focus. Sometimes I sing it soft, sometimes I almost yell. The song changes every time I play it.
This is why I make music. Not for perfect results but for these moments when something real tries to come through. When you stop thinking and just let whatever needs to come out, come out.
ELEPHANTS is still becoming. We’ll see where it goes.
— Indie pop artist, musician Anastasia Ledovskaya